Friday ~ January 11, 2008

This isn’t wedding related but it’s bothering me.

At times I don’t feel like I belong here.  I feel like I did in High School where I had my few friends and everyone else thought I was weird.  I don’t like the way that Adam always whispers when he’s talking to Ben or Jessica.  It really makes me feel like he’s talking about me and bad mouthing me to other people.  I’m sorry, but if you have a problem with me, act like an ADULT and talk TO me not ABOUT me to others!  It’s really frustrating and really pissing me off.  I’m to the point where I want to just walk up to him and say that to his f-ing face.  Then, I want to slap him.  ARGH!  Bye.

Thursday ~ January 10, 2008

Another day, another …. whatever.  I am so stressed out lately, I don’t know what to do with myself.  I joined the Atlantis Fitness Center over the weekend and had my first free personal training session yesterday.  I have to say that I did feel better after working out for an hour and I’m looking forward to my other free session.  I may possibly buy a package of sessions depending on how much it is.  I’d like to be able to work out something with the trainer where I can meet with him maybe once a month, work out on my own twice a week or so and then when we meet again he can move me up to the next level or whatever.  Anyway, I still gotta look at the class schedule too.  Thank God the week is almost over.  I’m exhausted.  It’s been a rough week for me.  I gotta get back into studying for my Series 7, which (as of now) I’m planning on taking on Feb 25.  I haven’t opened my window or scheduled the test yet.  I don’t want to do that till I’m 100% sure I’m ready.  It’s gonna be really hard with school and stuff starting in 2 weeks.  And I have to do a bunch of stuff for the wedding soon too.  It’s coming close to that point where I gotta do food tastings and stuff.  I need to call Sadie too for some voice lessons if I’m going to sing.  Gotta find out if we’re gonna take dance lessons….OMG!  OVERWHELMED……MUST……STOP…..*CRASH*!